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August 27, 2009

The Szondi Test Study Group is currently exploring “Ego development”

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What Ego?

The Szondi Test Study Group is currently exploring “Ego Development” from the baby blob to the super adult outcomes. This is open source and you need not be any kind of professional to sit in. This is of course based on the findings of Hungarian Psychiatrist, Leopold Szondi who argued that normal was but, a balanced mixture of eight key genotype psychiatric conditions. The Ego (Self/Me/I) has different ’settings’ as  development happens. The Ego settings are revealed by Szondi’s test method for those over age 4, and by a theoretical reconstructions for younger ages.

The link is here {HERE}

August 7, 2009

Dreameryv2, Dreamed, Old girl friend, Old boy friends, Candy Gift, Gangsters, The cat Aro.

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Dreaneryv2

August 7, 2009

MyDreams, My Self-Analysis.

dearmeryv2 Augusr 2009 Several Dreams sort of connected, the same night.

I was visiting somewhere, it was somewhat like my former mid-west high school building I am with M. a former school mate. Someone gave M. a gift which consisted of a box of candy. Larry and Rich, former dating beaus of M. and me were there and they left to go somewhere in the basement to go to the bathroom. They were slow in getting back and their excuse was that strangely, It had just been changed and the toilet sat behind the partition of the showers and they had to ask a passer by where it was.

Later M and I are surrounded by gangsters, they wave guns and swing black jacks that hit dangerously close to M’s head. I try to cool off their anger which appears to focus on something M, had done, by talking in a calm voice ‘Don’t hurt her- She didn’t mean to offend- or whatever it was is that is making you mad -” As they start to listen to me, M makes matters worse, by ferociously hitting back at them and calling them, mindless perverts and the most ugly names imaginable. I fear for her life and my own as they now start to move on me. Police car sirens sound as if approaching. The Gangsters run away. The meanest looking one yells at us. “We’ll take care of you later!” and throws a cigarette package on the ground in front of us. The package was opened part way and a couple cigarettes stick out of the top, The brand icon on the pack was one of an very old time steam train and on the back a head of a cat that resembled Aro. There was printing too small to read over this picture and on this side the package.

I was walking down a street with a girl I used to work with. We stopped at a flat bed truck which was being used to carry an open for business, ticket stand. There were people here betting on horses. I decided not to bet, but we went inside and it ended up also having a nice cafeteria. My friend was telling me how much she missed her husband because he was now overseas and I told her about Bill and the many things we were doing together. But in all the talking I never had a chance to eat. The other people there, playing the horses were of no interest to me, although, now and then, I was aware the horses were running and people were shouting.

I was at [the old family] home and the phone rang and it was Joe F. (an old friend, and never a love interest, then or now) called me to verify a date for that night. I wondered how he could know I was back in town. And what was it that led him to believe he had a date in the first place? I make evasive chit chat as I don’t want to hurt his feelings. Later I hear a scratching on the window and it was Aro the family cat. I was taken back as I believed he had passed away years before. I let the cat in and it looked hungry, so I go to the kitchen to find food for it. There is only moldy food, so I cut away the mold, but then there is only a small amount left for the cat to eat. I give it to the cat and tell it that I will go to store for more later. Somehow the cat seems to understand and stretches out on the floor with a pleased look.

I start my dream analysis by reading it over as if it was someone else sending me a private letter, one that I am expected to read between the lines, what is it they are telling me. Then I ask what is it, I am trying to tell myself. This very general and not forced to mean anything special. With the next step I make an effort to get as scientific as I am capable of (somewhat limited but improving).

I look up dream symbols in dream dictonaries, this is sometimes helpful, sometimes not so, or just plane silly.

I look for recurring symbols and themes, note for me, it is often food, talking, former friends that appear in my dream events.

I try to use what seems valid to me from stuff gleaned from Dr. Phil, L. Ron Hubbard, and bits and pieces of Freud.

Only recently have began free associating to the dream elements as recommended in Freud’s ‘The Interpretation of Dreams’. I feel I am very inept and clumsy at the free association technique and dislike the recurring sexual implications I turn up, when I try. However I am getting some more comfortable with it to explain things not otherwise explainable.

I really enjoy the dream analysis I receive from you. It makes me feel you and others are fulfulling the role of being my therapist-the dreamed of other who can help me be a better, happier person.

You can send me your analysis or reading at: fateanalysisguy@gmail.com or use comments below.

August 5, 2009

Montain Sortware Writer’s “Radio Tube Dream”

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Hi All!

I have been working on some code for mobile applications (for pay) that my employer hopes will soon rock the world. I find myself while repeating strips of code and rendering their check sums over and over, to ultimately debug them, with that a kind of flying on auto-pilot mental state sets in. One where you mind is some place else than where it should be. (Don’t tell my boss- He believes I’m in total focus every second.) Anyway in this mind state I find myself trying to perceive some connection with what I am doing and my desire to create a psychology based on computer science. As a result during this boring repetitive stuff a fuzzy logic kicks in, It is not exactly science or art and its actions is halfway between my very personal self-analysis practice of depth level free association and the real constraints that miniaturized electrical cuicuts layouts forces on the software that has to run correctly on a particular hardware device. I (fuzzy) think ‘can this devices dream, feel, think? It can deliver all sorts of images and words and sound to its holder’. ( then not fuzzy thinking) All stuff interesting or useful but hardly the real thing.

At near quitting time, I shift into sharp focus as I consider how I am to break the news to my boss, that to bring this concept to market, that modifications in the hardware would have be made or they will have settle for fewer bells and whistles.

MY DREAM THAT NIGHT

I am in a old time radio station-the equipment is acting up but running. The technology is pre-world war II, klunky looking mircrophones dials, meters, tubes, panels and knobs of black bakelite. There were even square glass jars filled with acid. Much like what you might see at tech museums. I could smell the ozone, the hot bakelite, and the acid.

Mr. K (my real life boss) hands me a still hot old time glass radio tube that I can see its insides are blackened from suffering a burn out. It is clear to me, he expects me to do something about it.

I rummage through a box of similar tubes, ones discarded from some past events. Most looked totally burnt out. I finally locate one with bent prongs but the glass was clear and the inner parts appeared intact. I offer it to try.

Mr. K says No, the broadcast is on and we must wait to do repairs.

We wait and look through a sound proof viewing window at the broadcast room, an anouncer who looks like Bill Clinton, intruduces a nice looking woman to sing. I struggle to make sence of the lyrics but the old style speakers distorted it too much. it was a sweet love song, I think. They left and a news crew took over the broadcast.

From a stack of photos Mr. K hands me one of the girl who just sang, saying: “You just saw history in the making.” Somehow I felt left out, peeved and disapointed but accepted the photo as gracefully as I could.

My analysis:

I see in this dream, the day residues from the pressures of my work. The desire to please my boss etc. Also the problems of advancing technology and what we want to make it do. In my self-analysis sessions, I am working through the repetious failures in my love life. which I don’t care to post publicly. Here the old burnt out radio tubes, I am sure Freud, would see as symbols of sexual problems or failed relations. My disappointment with being handed a photo and not the girl is obvious. The appearance of smell in the dream calls for some explanation I can’t offer. Bill Clinton make me smile when I recall his public embarrasments.

As always; if you have an alternative analysis. Send it to:

fateanalysisguy@gmail.com  Put in the subject “Radio Tubes Dream” and I’ll get it.

Tnanks–

flash card: revisionist psychology #001

Self-Analysis (The Doctrine) Asserts that when an attempt is made to unearth unconscious motivations we put up a struggle because some other interest of ours is at stake. This, in succinct terms, is the concept of “resistance” which is of paramount value for therapy.

Don’t try to remember this. It will stick in your mind relative to what it means to you.

August 4, 2009

Crybablystill

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August 2009

Here is a recent dream, it very mild compared to my childhood nightmares, but it still carries the dysphoric mood and the intractable fears of my childhood.

I am at outside the Rosicrucian Library where I had just purchased several books on the teachings of the ancient Egyptians. I have to walk around the corner to the Park Ave. bus stop which is just in front of a remarkably detailed bronze stature of Julius Caesar, that stands at the side of the museum entrance. I wonder why is Caesar honored here? No one is around and the museum is dark except for some decorative lights. I thumb through the new books with anticipated pleasure. With one book that seemed the most attractive, I discover the replicas of the the tomb and temple art has been ripped from the book. I find my receipt and consider taking it back for a intact copy, but I realize it is too late to do so. I feel some miffed, but I continue to wait for the bus, it seems to be a long wait and I find my self making up excuses for the delay. There was an accident, the driver or a passenger got sick, the bus broke down or was hijacked. Behind the Caesar statue, I see emerging out of the dark two rough looking guys, they look to me to be gangsters. The closer they approach, the more I grow uncomfortable, my heart beats faster, as I realized there is no place to go to get away from them. I hope somehow the museum guards or their electronic security will bring me help. The bus arrives and we all get on the bus, and while sitting in silence, I argue with myself; (still sleeping) was I just overcome with childish fears or had I in fact escaped a real danger? When I awake and get up. I look for the valued book. I find the art plates are still intact in it and the pages only very slightly worn after having existed many years in my bookcase.

The library, museum and the Caesar statue and the bus stop on Park Ave, were in reality present, when I went there, some years ago. There never were any incidents of fear causing men or missing pages. Are the dream men a replacements of the bogy men of my childhood, perhaps via the strange pantheon of the strange creatures that filled the book pages that were in my dream ripped out and somehow I could not immediately take back for replacement? What do you think?

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Marcia Dream — August 5, 2009

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I think that the library, the books about the Ancient Egyptians, the
statue of Caesar all represent things from your past that you have
stored in your unconscious. The fact that the replics have been
removed from the book is a sign that you have either repressed these
things or you just don’t want to deal with them.


You realize it’s too late to take the book back - you think you can’t
change what happened in the past, so it’s not worth bothering
about.


Making excuses for the bus being late = making excuses for not doing
anything to make your situation better (see above - can’t change
things, so not wortt bothering about.)


The men are rough-looking, but you’re not sure if they’re dangerous
or not. - You aren’t yet ready to get close to the things that are
frightening you and really examine them.

Thank you Marcia, you have such great insight!

My analysis would only add my fear of death strong since childhood
and  my Ceasar represents the missing in my life, father image,
which my mother tried to replace with devotion to the church the pope.
In my everyday life I feel like I am more safe when I let other drive
my life (the bus) but I grow markedly anxious when I realize I cannot
control, when and where they move me.

‘They’ being my impulses internal and and my strongly felt distrust
(the men), which I hide from others.

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